Doubt

The best thing that can happen to you is doubt
Doubt takes you beyond knowing

Doubt takes you beyond the absolute
Doubt takes you into disidentification

Doubt takes you into: “I don’t know”
Doubt takes you into Space
Doubt takes you into Love
Doubt takes you into You …

Where doubt arises,
Love can grow

Where there is doubt,
You are …

Once and now

Once upon a time
I believed
that after Christmas
the world would be different:
full of peace, full of light and love.

Once upon a time
I believed
that after Newyear’s Eve
the world would be different:
full of peace, full of light and love

Now
I know
that before and after Christmas
before and after Newyear’s Eve
the world in me eternally is the same:
full of peace, full of light and love ..

Space

Where there is space, there is love. No space, no love. Where there is freedom, there is love: freedom from all conditioning, old mind patterns, beliefs in whatever words or authority. Are you willing to investigate ALL beliefs? Are you willing to investigate ALL stories you have about other persons, situations, objects? Without the willingness to shine the brightest light on the conditioning in you, what you call “freedom” , is the prison of your conditioning. You may think you are free. That freedom is limited by the four walls of the conditioning: the wall of what you learned, the wall of what you heard, the wall of what you saw and the wall of what you believe. Yes, you can paint the wall of the prison and make the prison more comfortable. You can make the prison so cozy that there is no reason what so ever to see that there is a prison. The prison is now hidden behind all things that give you pleasure: new furniture, a better job, more money, beautiful vacations, nice cloths, movies.

When willingness comes and ‘awakening’ begins, there is a wave going through you. It then may seem as if a veil has been lifted and you see, or rather feel what was present, all the time, deep in you. Then you know that what you did was not who you are. You knew that joy could not be found in better, faster, higher, further. That passes: better is relative, just like further, faster and higher. There is always someone who beats what you did or what you have, after a short period. When willingness has come and you see clearly that you are actually within the walls of the prison of your conditioning, the walls will start falling. There will be wholes and cracks. Bricks will fall down.  And through the holes, you will start to see that there is a world outside the walls of the prison. The wind comes in, the sun and rain. You feel the warmth and the cold. And it feels a little bit strange. The space outside is so vast, that it frightens and attracts you immensly at the same time. The space in you and in the prison connect with the space outside and you notice, deep in you, that you are that space, that vastness. How can you be anything else than space?

Investigating your conditioned mind, with all the openess there is asking you every question, is a sign that willingness has come to you. She shows you, so full of love, softly and full of compassion,, that walls that are built, can crumble down. Willingness comes to you when the time has come. And that time is always: now …