Life

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Lifeforms, forms of life, that is what we call everything that is alive. What is being alive?

Every form you perceive in any way, is alive, so we think. The animal, the human, the flower, the stone, the thought, the emotion. How do you know that it is alive?

Is a dead tree dead? Is the wind dead when it is not blowing? Is the sun dead when it is not shining? Is the wave dead when the water is smooth like a mirror? Is a human dead when it has died?

We can not define life or define death. Where else do they exist, than in our mind, in our thinking? We think of life as good and of death as bad, as we think we know it.

The dead tree provides food, life, to billions of other organisms. Dead bodies are abundantly filled with other tiny little bodies. Dead flowers are food for new flowers.

Forms come and forms go. No form exists independently from all other forms. In that sense, every form is empty: empty of an individual, personal existence. In that sense, every form is full: full of the interconnectiveness with all other forms.

No form will live forever. At a given time the circumstances are that the form appears: the wave, the flower, the human, the thought, the emotion. And at a given time the circumstances are that the form disappears. In eternal movement.

Was there ever anything born? Did anything ever die? Or does it appear in the space that you are. And does it disappear out of the space that you are.

And could it be that the space that You are, is Life itself … … ?

Blessing

 Blessing

Precious newborn child of God
On your journey to who knows where?
Unaware of Love surrounding
Unaware of all the pain

Walk hand in hand with stillness
To the fullness in your heart
Walk hand in hand with dearness
To the love inside your heart

Find your own amazing freedom
That lies waiting in your soul
Dive into the endless oceans
Where you always find yourself

Blessings on your journeys
Without distance, without goal
Blessing on returning
Home where you have never left

Forest

Forest 

Walking through the dripping forest, abandonned by people, I walked my way. Raindrops on my hair, silent noice of rain falling upon the leaves, putting one foot in front of the other and some old friends payed me a visit.

The forestpath was filled with thoughts, old familiar thoughts, from long ago, my old familiar friends.

 “I am not good enough”, kissed me tenderly and disappeared into the rain.
“It is not there for me”, came  to me, with hesitation, looked at me, a little shy and dissolved in the wind.
“Nobody loves me”, looked at me, so penetrative, lovingly; she was with me for so many years. It was hard for her to go. Slowly she turned around, looked upon me for the last time and merged with the air.

I stood and saw them go, tears in my eyes. They were so familiar to me; they had given me so much. It was time for them to go. Silence came upon me. I put down my backpack and sat on the moss. One by one they passed, the people who helped me say goodbye to these old friends. Deep gratitude came over me for them, who helped me and still do.

At home, dry clothes, tea, woodstove on, I still feel the gentleness of the rain, the forestpath and the forest. The forest that is my home, that cherishes me, gives me my answers. The forest that is there, unmovable. The forest that I am.

Freedom

Freedom 

When you are freed from the identification with your past, your past will leave you alone

When you are freed from the identification with your thoughts, your thoughts leave you alone

When you are freed from your identification with your emotions, your emotions leave you alone

When you are freed from your identification with you, you leave You alone.

Obstacle

 Obstacle

Once you are on the slide to the depth in you, sometimes you experience some stopping in the glide. And you call it an obstacle. A bump, a ditch, a detour, a flat tire, a worn out shoe: very obvious.

There are also other obstacles: concotions, ghosts haunting from the past, fears of what lies ahead, attachment to the old and well known, attachment to the old pain, the old patterns: invisible most of the time.

Most of the time the invisible obstacles are nasty ones. You don’t know that they are there, until you feel inside yourself that there’s something not right.

And then it seems you have a choice: return and go the familiar road again, or, with soft hands opening the gift of it, look at it, embrace it and let it go back to where it came from.

You don’t know what you will choose when the time has come. The secret is that you don’t have to choose. It chooses you. The obstacle chooses you and the solution chooses you.

And sometimes there is someone with you, arms wide open, lovingly, who is there while you work your way through the obstacle.
Some people call it an angel
Maybe so
Maybe you are the angel
In the form of a human

Receiving

Receiving 

 Brought up with:
“It is better to give than to receive”

Made numb with
“It’s not there for me”

Fighting pain
of unfull-filled desire:
Giving is so much safer than receiving

Later learning
to open your hands
Experiencing slowly
the joy of fullness

Receiving is giving
Giving is receiving.